Exploring Emotions Through Music

Although love , a Japanese singer, even my favorite cannot be explained. This song (bilibili) deeply impression me; it seems to have stuck with my soul. I cant describe how disappointing and upsetting this is. Ive listened to this piece for over a year. Why am I so attracted to it?

Is fire calm? Is fire stillness? Is life decadence? Is death lightness?

When the gate to the other side opens unexpectedly, will shadows fall upon me like fine snow?

Will the remnants of my form another me?

The world is just a short song. In silence, I cant find any way out.

This song is very emotional but not overly sentimental. It spreads the deepest emotions like a beach wave endlessly until infinity, as if its both shared by all humans and uniquely mine in my solitude. If I could create such works, I might as well just die on the spot.

(I dont understand music; this is just rambling.) is one of the most admired types of literary creators in that category with solid foundation. He relies heavily on intuition for composing music but goes out to express himself. Such works have cohesion and are poetic expressions like the speech of a poet. They capture feelings like mine, though not anything earthshaking or extraordinary, yet they flow continuously in our hearts, and only oneself can understand them.

Perhaps my experience has grown, so I no longer seek gigantic epic works such as symphonies (like those by Tchaikovsky Brahms etc.) or novels like ‘sCrime novel or ‘sWar and Peace, nor do I prefer experimental works like Muzhil’s compositions or others. Now my taste is more inclined to complete but simple pieces whose aim lies beyond the music itself (such as ’s songs). Maybe Ive just gotten lazier. Or maybe the imperfections in me have become more significant.

The imperfections in me might lead me to seek them even more.