Reflecting on Working From Home and Emotional Exhaustion

After a long absence, I returned to working at home, only to find that even though the work hours were similar, my mental state was still disjointed. It wasn’t just about being contemplative; it was more of a routine expenditure of brainpower, leaving me feeling somewhat aimless.

In recent days, before bed, I’ve been binge-watching Girls Band Cry, and by the time the live performance of the eleventh episode ended, my mood was lifted. I stayed awake for several hours, couldn’t sleep, and as soon as I lay down, a solo followed by intense flight-like movements began (see: Girls Band Cry- ȥ륷/ ).

I couldn’t help but feel slightly guilty for not doing more to release my pent-up emotions, only methodically working through them, enduring unnecessary anxiety and depression. It truly felt like a waste of life. My mind was only able to oscillate between anxiety and boredomextending itself further whenever possible because I didn’t want to let my emotions occupy too much of my time or energy during the day. But the faint tremor in my soul suggested that such passive reaction wasn’t enough for me. I realized that I craved more meaningful, purposeful activities where I could freely create and express myselfsomething that still eludes me. Life isn’t about loss; it’s about gaining. The longer time passes without anything gained, the more likely everything will be lost.

Though I couldn’t shake the feeling of sadness, a deeper sense of boredom set in. These past few days have been too quiet for GBC type displays of recklessness and risk-takingnot something I would ever engage with. My life is just a never-ending pit of static, slowly decaying.

Yet, despite feeling this way, some TV series still bring comfort when one can persist through them. If the story keeps me interested long enough to push through initial awkwardness and lethargy, it allows me to expand beyond my usual bounds. But only if I choose to watch them.

Though I’ve finished 13 episodes and feel empty inside, there’s also much to savor from the live performances that kept me awake for several nights. A few days isn’t a long time, but the prolonged mental and emotional pressure is balanced out by the meaningful experiences shared with others. Last night after work, I had a drink at , while pondering how much relief it was to not have to deal with such nonsense anymore. It’s clear that one should take action to protect their health rather than fearing conflict. Let’s learn from !