Reflections on Personal Growth and Mental Struggles

Just listened to some talks about personal growth, and everything seems so alike. What I expressed in my blog isn’t anything embarrassing or overly about myself, but rather what millions of people are going through right now mentally. This actually gave me a bit of relief. On the other hand, I’ve been thinking: since we’re all facing similar struggles, is this approach correct? Are we using words and thoughts to soothe ourselves? Isn’t this like grasping at straws, only providing temporary stabilization that diminishes as our sense of thresholds increases? Is everything really just a matter of transience? What’s behind these feelings?

Could perception be trained through meditation, much like muscles? If perception is fatigued, then isn’t the source of our peace all-encompassing and requiring constant effort to maintain calmness? Isn’t this akin to always carrying a ball on one’s head, which would fall once slacken? When acting, how can we meditate without losing focus? With so many problems arising in action and life moving through the stream of existence, is maintaining concentration really possible?

Since I possess transcendent strength due to my pain, maybe this is meant for training. Anxiety makes me lose sight, and I merely want to rid myself of “me,” embracing non-attached views of karmic separatenessallowing this trembling heart to experience everything in the world. When my focus shifts from this narrow street, experiencing anything at all becomes possible.